This morning I couldn’t help but think of this day last year. I woke up feeling very refreshed. I slept on the couch the night before which was working well for me. Using pillows I could prop myself up on my side and rest my back on the back of the couch. I was feeling more refreshed than usual. I woke up with Chris and I walked him to the train station for work. We had to stop a few times when I had really strong contractions and felt like I couldn’t walk. I distinctly remember stopping at the corner of Rockway and Colusa and he gave me a look like “this is it, huh?” But we kept walking him to work.
I came back home and planted myself in front of the tv with a puzzle. I was avoiding the phone and my email. I was avoiding the “have you had your baby yet?” questions. My mom, dad, and Katie called that morning. They respectfully did not ask if I was in labor yet and kept my mind off of waiting. I never finished the puzzle. At 10:30am I stood, felt a strong tug and my water broke. 37 hours later I would be holding Sawyer.
The last year has gone by so fast and it has been so amazing. I always knew I wanted to be a mother. But I never expected to fall in love this hard.
I already miss baby Sawyer. But luckily I have videos and pictures this, this and this.
Thinking about the last year there are two things that really stand out in my mind. The first is that I don’t really remember too many rough times. I remember feeling really sore and having a hard time with nursing when I came home from the hospital. I remember one night where Sawyer cried all night during his first growth spurt and I remember his first few colds. And even these memories aren’t negative.
The other thing that stands out in my mind is seeing Chris become a dad. I knew I married my best friend and that he’d always be by my side. But I am still struck by what an amazing father he is. The night that Sawyer was born he went to the NICU with him as they suctioned out his lungs. He texted me pictures of him since I had to stay in Labor and Delivery. He changed all of Sawyer’s diapers in the first two weeks and made all of my meals for longer than that. He still changes more diapers than me since he has mornings with Sawyer. He made me laugh at 3 in the morning and we exchanged pacing duties in the middle of the night. He and Sawyer are best buds. I’m so thankful.
Even though I miss baby Sawyer I am loving the little boy he is becoming. It is so easy to make him laugh and smile. He is very huggy (he got this from his mom). He is so huggy that our friend said she thinks of him as a koala holding on. He is a total daredevil… he is happiest when he is being bounced in the air. And, he loves trying new things. He even liked sauerkraut the other night. I can’t wait to see what he is going to do next.
I came back home and planted myself in front of the tv with a puzzle. I was avoiding the phone and my email. I was avoiding the “have you had your baby yet?” questions. My mom, dad, and Katie called that morning. They respectfully did not ask if I was in labor yet and kept my mind off of waiting. I never finished the puzzle. At 10:30am I stood, felt a strong tug and my water broke. 37 hours later I would be holding Sawyer.
The last year has gone by so fast and it has been so amazing. I always knew I wanted to be a mother. But I never expected to fall in love this hard.
I already miss baby Sawyer. But luckily I have videos and pictures this, this and this.
Thinking about the last year there are two things that really stand out in my mind. The first is that I don’t really remember too many rough times. I remember feeling really sore and having a hard time with nursing when I came home from the hospital. I remember one night where Sawyer cried all night during his first growth spurt and I remember his first few colds. And even these memories aren’t negative.
The other thing that stands out in my mind is seeing Chris become a dad. I knew I married my best friend and that he’d always be by my side. But I am still struck by what an amazing father he is. The night that Sawyer was born he went to the NICU with him as they suctioned out his lungs. He texted me pictures of him since I had to stay in Labor and Delivery. He changed all of Sawyer’s diapers in the first two weeks and made all of my meals for longer than that. He still changes more diapers than me since he has mornings with Sawyer. He made me laugh at 3 in the morning and we exchanged pacing duties in the middle of the night. He and Sawyer are best buds. I’m so thankful.
Even though I miss baby Sawyer I am loving the little boy he is becoming. It is so easy to make him laugh and smile. He is very huggy (he got this from his mom). He is so huggy that our friend said she thinks of him as a koala holding on. He is a total daredevil… he is happiest when he is being bounced in the air. And, he loves trying new things. He even liked sauerkraut the other night. I can’t wait to see what he is going to do next.
Thanks for following along with us. The last year wouldn't have been been the same without all of the support from our family and friends.
Em
I'm so sorry I still haven't met 'little' Sawyer yet, but I look forward to meeting 'bigger' Sawyer as soon as the stars align to do that. Happy (almost) birthday Sawyer Cannon!!!
ReplyDeleteglad you have enjoyed the past year. give Sawyer a birthday hug from all of us in WA. Motherhood has a way of making you forget your pregnancy and labor so that you'll have more kids! ;-) jeannie, brian, fisher, and scout
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